This year was fuckin nuts! And no better way to end the year then with my 3 best buds in the whole world. It has been the biggest turn in my musical career in the right direction and I Love it. Touring across Canada. Became friends with a lot of new people. And met a lot of really sweet people I’ll hopefully never forget. This year was filled with emotion. I recorded a legit CD with a juno award winning producer. My bands music is on iTunes. Someone got a tat with our bands lyrics also and it just feels great I’m never one to brag I’ve very humble and will give anyone who wants to talk to me 3 hours if I have the time. But it just feels so good to look back on all my accomplishments and everything I’ve achieved with hard work. I miss my friends DEARLY. I went from having some of the closest friends and people I had known for so long and had such gold bonds with. To moving and hangin out with a computer screen most nights. It sucks. I have a lot of fun times in this band and so many great memories I’ll never forget. But the band isn’t 24/7. I work a lot and just go home to hang out with my computer.
this past tour i was walking in the streets of ottawa. by myself. just kinda looking around. thinking. HOW THE FUCK DID I GET HERE! exactly one year ago i was working 3 jobs. a usher at casino, a vegetable factory and a bakery. and i had driven up to jam with chasing amee once and i thought ryan HATED ME so i was intimidated to go back. now here i am a year later. in ottawa walking to get some starbucks while everyone is walking by me talking french in SUCH a beautiful little town. when we played Down Town the night before and about 120 people were there singing along to our songs. then once i get back in the van were heading to montreal to headline a show that about 40 people stuck around for. crazy how fast things can change! hard work pays off.
So were parked on a random street in brantford and we did the old “sleep in the van” thing last night. And man does it sucks waking up to rain smashing off our hollo roof. Almost impossible to sleep. Specially when my mind is going crazy thinking about her.
Hamilton tonight and then a couple days off. Wish we were touring for 4 more months.
Last night we played Windsor. Venue was alright more of a bar but we rocked it and I think it sounded dope. I never get nervous but when I play Windsor for some reason I’m always so nervous. But it was good to be home. Went out with the band and a real chill babe. But the real reason for this rant was my friends… It’s crazy how fast things can change. The 4 main people i chilled with all had grown up so much and it’s crazy to see them and think of them as mature older adults and I’m at the same age level just on a whole other lifestyle level. It’s weird because I wonder if I never moved away if I would have ended up like all my close friends who are all almost married. I’m happy with how things are working out and I just met probably the coolest girl there is!
Things are good
End of the first night and it was such a great success we NAILED it tonight! So excited for this tour. CD released today. I love all the positive feedback ao far! Man I can’t get this girl out of my head!
tonights show was mad tight! we had so much fun! my wrist REALLY hurts and it sucks but im gonna keep playing and pushing past the pain. I just love it! i love the feeling of being on stage and just entertaining people and just ROCKIN OUT! such a great feeling to play something that means so much to mean and have other people enjoy it with me. we have such a good team inside and out. the boys in my band were bros and i love the chemistry. justin our merch man helper dude he is so supportive and its sweet to have. on this tour our tour managers runnin ron and peter 2 best dudes there is! so thank ful tonight for everything that is going on in my life. and you should be thankful too for what means most to you because it could all be gone before you know it
So you're Birthday is tomorrow (or today if you are reading this on November 19th) lol, anyways. I just wanted to say Happy Birthday and that I'm glad to call you my friend. You are absolutely amazing, your adorable, sweet and anyone who says different can fuck off. But I hope your day is amazing and wonderful just like you. Love you Ryan. : ) p.s keep smiling, I love your smile.
Thank you very much whoever you are haha but no need to be anonymous about saying happy birthday haha
well here i am! just smoked a bowl and thinkin back on things. and for some reason i can only really go over the past year! so much has happened and ive loved every second! i miss my friends and family DEARLY! including the comfort of living with my parents. have a vehicle, not having to work at fast food, and so much more. but the best things in life are things you work for and once you accomplish them! it is the greatest feeling. tuesday the 22nd were opening for ten second epic on the same night our cd comes out! 7 months in the making and i couldnt be more stoked
I wish that i was younger. Maybe then. These feelings would be different? Stronger? More innocent? Our minds are at the same level. Very intrigued as to what this world is all about. Just one of the many thoughts we share. Our minds could travel this world and have the most craziest adventures. Long boarding California, Surfing Australia,partying with the animals in Galapagos Island & where ever your heart desires I’ll take you there. Just two lovers in-twine kicking it. Enjoying the Herb that was put here to put us in the groove and feel high. Another one of the many thoughts that surround us. Music taste to attitude. I could be anywhere as long as I’m with you. As we grow old and fragile. Our emotions and love grow rapidly stronger. The things i would do to you. The things I would say. If only you knew. The trustworthy, ever lasting, never ending, uncontrollable. Love. I have. for you.
when everything stops working. push on. what makes us all feel amazing is when we accomplish something. and to say you pushed past something difficult that brought you down and you made it past by staying focused and being positive and just dealing with whatever it is that may get you down. THAT is what makes life worth while! I was in a band that I was 110% sure that we would make it big. we were destine to be the next coldplay but from canada. the most AMAZING song writer i have ever come in-contact with. the guy would write 3 hits a day! But great skills arent everything. your attitude has to be there. and that was one thing he didnt have. producers, our manager, our lawyer, his parents, his friends, some of the greatest musicians in the industry. ALL tried to harness him but you cant help someone who doesn’t want to be helped. 1 Month after making the hardest decision to quit. I was talking to Ryan on facebook chat. talking about how i was going back to school and he told me how they were looking for a drummer. a month and a half later on my 21st b-day i took a chance and drove 3 and a half hours to meet up with the guys who i had only met 4 or 5 times. we jammed and the moment we played the first song easy come, easy go! ( a song we NEVER ended up playing live haha) it just felt right and its been like that ever since. This band has accomplished so much already and we haven’t even be a year yet! I dont see this train stopping anytime soon! When i listen to credible witness songs it makes me appreciate where i came from. walter taught me A LOT about song writting and we all taught each other and helped each other grow as musicians. I never forget c dub days. second cup, ians skate shop, johns long dick, game cube in mikes basement, the first time walter said fuck walking up that hill in tecumseh, On the CW days. trips to toronto to hang with greig, being on much music, recording with cone, catching fish on tour, mike almost dying on tour, madawaska 09, whos the pussy?, O AND BY THE WAY WATCH OUT FOR KYLE, HE HAS FUCKING POO STAINS IN HIS PANTS haha all the good insiders! im happy the way things worked out.
I cared about her so much. I loved her for who she was. Didnt matter about her past or how different we were I just gave her the most amount of love and respect and what did I get. A phone call that would change everything. Honestly fuck falling in love and caring for someone. I’m tired of getting let down. I care for someone and they let me down all the time. That’s why I love playing music. Music Dont ditch me. Dont lie to me. Dont cheat on me. Nothing negative happens from it. Just makes me happy and gives me something to look forward too. I love it! I love playing drums. I love making people move with my music. I love that people know the words and sing along! I’m happy with where life has taken me but finding a girl to chill with and hangout with and just share stories with and call mine would be sweet.